2013年11月30日 星期六

自責

我想講,我呢種Internalizing既Attribution Style真係呢到我做人做得好辛苦。係無比既辛苦。點解。點解我就係唔肯放過自己。點解一定要同自己過唔去。

2013年11月25日 星期一

救命

其實這樣子的生活很辛苦。其實這樣辛苦的生活是為了啥。

是時候繼續溫習了。

2013年11月16日 星期六

ARGH

15 seats. 4 friends enrolled. The feeling of incapability just keeps flushing into my damn head. I says I understand the decision and result but in fact I DON'T.

Externalizing and internalizing reasons flicker and make me feel dizzy, although I was clearly told that the selection tells NOTHING about individuals' ability. How can I possibly take this reason. I tried to calm down but thoughts just recur.

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Rarely I would feel NO pride of myself. I used to think of the accomplishment I have made, but these days I can just think of the things that I have done worse than others. Damn comparison. Can I just be, in any aspect, more successful than everyone? Why am I always get beaten up? Where DID my pride come from.

Not solely because of the practicum enrollment. Life recently makes me feel inapt. I don't know how to cheer myself up. Damn. This is not ME. Where the hell am I hiding from me.

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I doubt the possibility that I am developing certain kind of psychological disorder. Haha.